2011 - When we talked for the first time...
2011, the year which was the most complicated year of my life, because that was the year in which I have fallen in love for the first time or you can say the rest of the life.
Those were the days when people use to have crushes based on anyone's appearance. I too was having the same experience of having a crush on a TV Actor. As time passed and I reached my teenage life, I was having some crush feelings for my tuition-mate, who was a classmate of my best friend.
He never knew that he was my crush, but he noticed it in my eyes but never shown me that he already knew about it. As I was not that much beautiful or acceptable personality on those days, He never tried to confront himself just because of the fear of becoming a joke in his friend's group but he already cleared me in person that he just like me a friend and already love someone.
Still, I never confessed to him directly for the sake of rejection. He was nice to me in my front, a good person, a caring friend or someone who was always life just a friend. We used to talk on messenger those days. He was always there as a friend but his reaction starting becoming strange like he started feeling jealous or possessive when I use to talk our mutual or to any of his male friends on social media.
We used to talk on social media only as I was not having any mobile phone on those days because I was quite young at that time but usually, I asked my elder sister mobile for accessing social media for just to talk to him.
One day He said to me- “I started liking you, but can’t accept you in public or friends.”
I said - “It’s OK!” (My Heart was burning worst instead of feeling accepted the pain was more of being publicly rejected)
The pain was more than just words, but still handled it with care and was thinking at least he accepted. As time passed, we use to talk so much, all day along late-night, he uses to send morning message to goodnight-message whether I was online or not, always got his messages on time.
Those feelings were for the first time, that’s why we use to stay happy all day long. My board exams were about to start, and his too. We started having time to study more than just talking to each other, but still, find a bit of time for small conversations.
As time passed, board exam finished, I got some news that his friends came to know about us, he directly rejected in front of everyone and confessed only his 3 best friends Mr. Veer, Ashu and Deep about it.
He confessed little different in front of them like – “She is just a friend, she likes me but I don’t!”
I was unaware of his words, his friends sent me a request and all were good at talking. But they all were not the same behind as were with me in social media. They started teasing him behind my back, he started joining them in making jokes and so on but never let me know about it.
My best friend Manna advised me not to talk to them, as she already knew something wrong had happened.
One day, a new person “Diveet” – the best friend of Ashu, joined those four besties (My Crush, Veer, Ashu, and Deep) at a party, and for fun, they started making fun of mine looks or personality. About it, I was unaware and days passed on. I never knew about this best friend of Ashu. Ashu was good with me on social media we never met but he knew me by face as well.
One day Diveet asked Ashu – “Who is She (I)? Why all your other friends make fun of her?”
Ashu replied: “I don’t know much about her, but she is a nice girl with a good heart but not acceptable personality by look as per his expectation for his partner (My crush). I don’t know why these people are good at her face and so diplomatic behind her. But why are you asking about her so much?”
Diveet answered : “Because I found she is a different person, as my perspective, She is something who is real and I want to know her more”.
Ashu replied: "Add her on social media. But she will not add you directly. I mean she is an anti-social type of personality and doesn’t like to talk unknowns."
Diveet: "OK! Let me know about her details of social media? I will try to talk to her because wants to know her personally instead of your friend's group jokes."
Ashu replied: "Don’t you feel Diveet, you are feeling possessiveness for her? Do you feel for her?"
Diveet said: "I don’t know but I just want to talk to her first."
Ashu said : "Ok Bro! You try your luck on social media. Let me see how I able to help you with it."
And here the story started…
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